A mother of six has opened up in a candid interview about sometimes ‘regretting’ having her twin sons.
Dublin woman Jeanne Measom spoke to The Sun about struggling to cope with the birth of her twin sons, Rowan and Jude, at 42.
“I love them—of course I do. But there were days when they were younger that I honestly regretted having them,” said Jeanne, “That might make me sound like a bad mum.”
“One night when they were 10 days old, I stood watching them both finally sleeping at the same time,” she told The Sun, “Instead of the warm fuzzy feeling of love and pride I’d felt with my other children regret burnt inside me. I asked myself what had I done.”
“Had I made the wrong choice in not terminating the pregnancy? I felt guilty for even thinking it.”
“I realised there was just no time for that same emotional attachment,” she said.
Continuing, the Jeanne revealed how she became very overwhelmed and reaching a breaking point as the twins grew older.
“Around their first birthday, I sat in the car with them, listening to both of them wailing and thinking I can’t do this any more. Staring at them in the rear-view mirror dark thoughts rushed though my mind: I could give them up for adoption, or I could kill us all…” she said, “They were just fleeting thoughts – thankfully. But I felt like I was drowning. I desperately needed help.”
Jeanne, now 51, revealed she is doing a lot better and denies that her confession makes her a ‘bad mother’.
“I’m an honest mother and the truth that no parent of multiples likes to admit is this: having twins is unrelentingly hard work.”
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