As he enters the final stages of SAS Australia, the nationโs toughest reality show, former NRL star Darius Boyd tells Womanโs Day one of the more difficult aspects to come from the experience is watching himself be vulnerable about his past on screen.
โItโs never easy talking about it all, but I knew going in that was going to be part of it,โ the 34-year-old says about seeing himself open up on the mentally challenging series.
โBut I think itโs part of the process, talking about your challenges and how you can overcome them. Itโs the way to be โ open and honest.โ
During his recent interrogation on the show, the former Brisbane Broncos and Newcastle Knights player revealed the extent of his tumultuous childhood โ he never knew his father and was estranged from his mother when he was just eight.

He never knew his father and has been estranged from his mother.
(Image: Channel Seven)He also admitted that his personal struggles playing professional football led to him cheating on his wife Kayla before entering a mental health facility in 2014.
But Darius says heโs come so far with his โtight-knitโ family โ which includes Kayla and their three daughters, Willow, five, Romi, two, and 12-month-old Gia โ and is only looking to the future.
โWeโve had a lot of challenges, but weโre in a really good space now. Weโve grown so much.
โWeโre still not perfect โ but no one is โ and some of the things weโve gone through have put us in good stead for where we are today,โ he says.

โWeโve had a lot of challenges, but weโre in a really good space now.โ
(Image: Tertius Pickard/Are Media)Learning to accept the imperfections also means letting go of his past, which includes healing his relationship with his mother โ โWe see each other as much as we can. Itโs nice having her back in my life thatโs for sure,โ says Darius โ to learning to accept that he may never know the identity of his father.
โIโve had a few people reach out, saying that they could be [my dad] and Iโve done a few DNA tests but nothing came from that,โ he says.
โIโve gone without a father for this long now and you just find other father figures to look up to and fill that void โ and Iโve been lucky enough to find them.โ
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Now, Darius spends his days living the quiet life with his family in Brisbane with their only taste of showbusiness being when they sit down to watch SAS as a family โ purely for his eldest child Willowโs enjoyment if no one elseโs.
โSheโs been keen to watch every episode. I think sheโs pretty proud,โ he says.
โAnd with her, it doesnโt really matter if I fail a task โ she just wants me to complete it and never give up. That was one of the things she said to me before going in.โ
And regardless of passing the course this week, making his daughters proud and ensuring they live a happy life is priority number one.

โSheโs been keen to watch every episode. I think sheโs pretty proud.โ
(Image: Tertius Pickard/Are Media)โFatherhood reinforced some of the things I learned from the mental health facility about your support network and family and connection and trust,โ says Darius.
โI just want to make sure that our girls have a really loving family and understand mental health and challenges.
โHopefully we can pass that on and they have a really positive mindset as they grow up.
โIโll do anything to make sure theyโre happy and enjoying their best lives.โ
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