Samantha X has opened up about her recent split from reporter Ryan Phelan, sharing some very real — and heartbreaking — words.
Speaking with The Daily Telegraph on Friday, the former escort said that despite feeling “bruised” she’s determined to pull up her bootstraps and forge a new life.
“I felt like a failure [after the relationship ended],” she told the publication.
“But if there is one thing that being Samantha taught me, it was not to care what anyone else thinks and that everyone goes through their own battles.”
Samantha (real name Amanda Goff) also revealed that she has plans to enroll in a university course as a mature age student. She’ll be tackling a masters in counseling and psychology.
“I understand I wrote a book coming out as Samantha, the escort,” she said, adding: “But there is so much more to me than my cleavage.”
The mother-of-two recently confirmed that she and the Channel Seven reporter had decided to go their separate ways. They were together for just three months.
“Ryan and I have decided to end our relationship,” the 42-year-old told The Daily Mail.
“The love was very deep between us, but sometimes love isn’t enough.”
She added: “I will continue to study my masters in Counselling and Psychotherapy and will continue to help and support other women. I will not be going back to escorting, and instead look forward to a bright future helping women be the best they can be with or without a man!”
Ryan — the 2005 Cleo Bachelor Of The Year winner and father to two adult children — had previously opened up to The Sydney Morning Herald’s PS column about their romance.
“We met when Amanda came in to promote her second book, Back On Top, and I asked her out on a lunch date,” he explained.
“We have pretty much spent everyday together since, I fell in love with Amanda, no one else, and that is who she is to me, Amanda, an outstanding mother and an outstanding woman.”
He added: “If anything she has achieved a lot in her career and given an industry a voice it didn’t have before.”
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In October, Samantha X announced her retirement from sex work and posted a photo of her last ever client — a 76-year-old man with Parkinson’s disease – before leaving for Europe with Ryan.
“After six wonderful years as Samantha, I am hanging up my Louboutins to move onto a brand new life…” she told her thousands of social media followers.
“This isn’t a ‘I’m taking a break but I’ll be back’ blog – this is it. The end of escorting for me, but the beginning of something even more wonderful… It wasn’t always easy, but I wouldn’t change a single thing… Now for the next chapter.”
We wish them both the very best of luck!